Two more days and this year is over. Another year over, a new one just beginning and again I only hear of resolutions, plans, hopes and dreams for the next 365 days.
I gave up on this a while back, when I dreamed of having another baby, moving house, change job and go back on my writing and all I got was a near death experience, same job, lots of anxiety and anger and also fear.
2019 was just a year. I laughed, I cried, I failed and I also achieved, I got older and not necessarily wiser, I learned a thing or two and I guess, most importantly, I made my mum get over her fear of flying so I got to see her twice in London and show her around and maybe get her to relax a bit and forget about her every day stress.
The past twelve months brought me lots but it was nothing exceptional. Even so, I won’t complain. I only want to say my thank you’s and be grateful for all there was with good and bad.
I am grateful for my health
I am grateful for my family
I am grateful for the love I receive
I am grateful for my friends
I am grateful for the job I have and for the new perspectives on the horizon
I am grateful for the most precious gift that is my daughter whom I love more than life itself
I am grateful for my Christmas tree and the presents that filled up my living room. I am grateful for all the wonderful books I got to read and for all the pots I got to write on this blog. I am grateful for the beautiful summer holiday we had by the beach and for all the new places I got to see
And thank you to my family and friends for understanding me and being there for me.
Thank you to God for giving me strength to fight my battles, for sometimes helping me see life without anxiety, for giving me so many laugh out loud moments throughout the year and even for the tears I shed (sometimes maybe one too many).
2020 will find me older but just the same me as ever. I’ll be filled with hopes and dreams for tomorrow, I will feel like an utter failure for not being able to fit everything in a day or for not being the perfect mother I always wanted to be. 2020 will make me cry and will make me smile and the end of it will find me writing on the same computer and using the same keyboard, reflecting at the very same things while proudly watching my daughter make puzzles and read stories.
So, I am waiting for 2020, maybe to surprise me in a good way and promise to keep you posted.
In the same time, THANK YOU to all my followers and readers for making my day every time you like or comment on my posts and make me feel better about just about everything in life.
I wish you all a spectacular 2020