May the odds be always in your favour mama bear. Be calm, breath and don’t get angry. Nothing is what it appears to be. Keep calm and carry on. It is what it is and there’s nothing you can do.

Learn from your mistakes and never lose your head.

About a month ago me and Kris made plans for today. We were both looking forward to going to a party, spend some quality time together, have our date night away from worry and little monkey. So I left Ruby with him in the mornings and went to do my hair. I chose my outfit and we were like two excited kids waiting for the big moment. I spoke with my friend to babysit for few hours and arranged it all into detail.
But you know what happens when you make plans? They never work. Something is always wrong. It’s like a sign from above telling you to let yourself in the hands of faith and not hope for anything.

Make the best of what you have  and this way you will get more.

When I got home from the hairdresser my baby was a bit down. She didn’t have much milk and she had very smelly tummy problems. She even started coughing. I thought she just wants attention making silly noises so I didn’t pay much attention to it. When the cries began i knew there is something wrong with her. She only wanted to be in my arms, hear my voice and have cuddle time with me. She is a pretty independent baby and this is how I know when something is not right. If she only chooses to be with me and sleeps in my arms than we are heading for a bumpy ride, a proper sleepless night full of tears and walks around the house. Holding her so tight I felt her skin burning and red lights were flashing in my head. She never had fever before, she’s never been sick.

She only had colic when she was newborn. I checked her temperature about four times but the thermometer was telling me to calm down. 37 C twice and once 36.8 C. We decided to cancel our plans. We can’t go anywhere knowing she is not well. After about an hour or so she fell asleep crying in my arms and I rocking in the chair. It was such a peaceful moment. So quiet, so perfect. Only my baby started sweating and she was so cold although sweat was pouring over her forehead and her back. I was thinking of waking her up and giving her some paracetamol but than again she’s got no fever so what if I make things worse?
I left her in her bed and went in the kitchen. I had to do something to calm down so I can think straight. I started cleaning and arranging everything around with such speed like someone was chasing me to have me killed. I done everything the second I finished I hear her little cry making me aware she is up and she needs me. I went to see her and she was awake smiling at me like nothing happened. She had a bit of milk and went in play mode chewing on every toy she can grab. I stared at her, checked her temperature again (shit digital thermometer takes ages) and changed her. I looked at her all happy and beautiful and realised that she mugged us off. She took a piss out of our plans. She knew we wanted to leave so she showed us who is boss in the house. She still has the cough and this will be checked by GP in the morning but in rest she is fine. So I can’t help but thinking: did my baby fake illness? She is a genius I tell you. She really knows what she’s doing and she is getting smarter every day. She is playing us like a pro.

SONG OF THE DAY: – maybe it will help us sleep through the night