I still remember my teenage years when I catalogued as “old”, every single person who was thirty or over. I used to think that once you get to this age, you somehow stop having fun, have to have a bunch of kids and be the responsible adult society wants you to be. Having young parents probably got this in my head as by the time my mum hit thirty she had already two kids (aged 9 and eight) and another on the way.
Since I was about fourteen I couldn’t wait to grow up and hit eighteen (legal age in my country to drink and also to drive). I thought that that was when I would be considered a grown up and be able to take decisions on my own, do what I want and win my own money so I can buy the clothes I want and go out as many times as I want. I thought that between eighteen and thirty is the time frame you have to have fun and enjoy life before becoming an adult and therefore old.
Than, I was eighteen and just finished high school and got my first ever job (summer job until Uni started) working in a store selling car parts. I got my first mobile phone on a contract (not thinking how will I pay for it after I start Uni and stop working). It was liberating and fun but it had some shit parts as well. I experienced my first #metoo and I can tell you it felt scary, frustrating and it left me with some confidence issues but at that time I only thought it’s something that happens at all times and sexual jokes are just normal in a workplace (cause was stupid like that)
Uni started and my mum ended up paying for my contract, I found a boyfriend and few months later I was doing random jobs as an interpreter gaining some good money for my student years. But it wasn’t constant and because I had my family to pay for my studies and transport and food, all I gained I spent stupidly on clothes and shoes.
At the age of twenty one I striked my first job in a TV station as a reporter and soon after I started learning editing and I was producing and writing the short news edition (broadcasted hourly). I was working nights and would go Uni everytime I could. I loved TV work and I became a producer for a live TV show, followed by news producer and my last job was as a TV producer for an amazing weekly show following the first response and ER medical staff.
And here I was at the age of thirty, single, living for my job and with no future perspectives whatsoever. I thought there was nothing more to learn in that field and I was to be stuck doing the same thing over and over again for the rest of my life. So I decided to take the drastic measure of changing my life. I moved countries, started my life over and realised I was actually over thirty and not old at all.
I realised that life starts when you hit your thirties and these are the best years. I felt more happy, free and accomplished than in my last ten years although I was alone in a foreign country working as a waitress, receptionist or customer service person.
I realised that it’s all about the way you feel, it’s about the way you LIVE and learn and progress in life and not about the stamp society puts on you once you hit a certain stage in your life.
What is OLD in the end? Just a conception, an idea of how we are supposed to behave and dress according to society’s rules.
I will be forty next year and although the thought scares the shit out of me, I can tell you that I feel young in my heart, I feel better than in my twenties, I feel that life is about to unfold amazing things for me and that I have never been healthier or fitter ever before.
I see life with different eyes and although I love drinking and I love having fun and going out, I know better than ever what my priorities are and what TO FEEL means.
I know love in it’s forms and ages, I know having fun in it’s stages but I also know what real friends look like, what being loved and loving actually means, I know how to appreciate life’s pleasures and I swear I am not feeling OLD one bit.
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I feel you sister. I understand how the aging process can feel. However, you are right in saying that what is old? Nobody is too old to enjoy the beautiful things that life brings to us. Nobody is too old for the awesome parts of our universe. You are right there sister. There is so much to be explored in this world, and even at 70, I doubt that an avid explorer would have touched even the tip of what the world has to offer. Live your best life, and explore the world, the world is made for brave people like you. I also want to let you know, you are not in this thing called life alone. No matter how positive we are, life has its hard moments, and situations can sometimes be tough. At all times, it pays to know the Lord, and to be connected with him. God has dominion over all things, and he is able to help us in our time of need. Our heavenly father is like a parent, he does not want any harm to come to us his children, and he always loves us even more than we love ourselves. We need to key in and be aligned with his plan for us. It all starts here sister, a relationship with God begins with faith in the Lord, obedience to the Bible, prayers to God, and a passion for Christ. God is ready, the question is, are you?
The Bible says in Philippians 4:6
“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done”.
The Bible says in Matthew 7: 7-8
“Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened”.
God says in Isaiah 41:10
“Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you.
I will hold you up with my victorious right hand”.
God says in Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope”.
If you do not yet have a relationship with the Lord, I would strongly suggest that you begin one. There are a lot of blessings that comes from knowing the Lord, and being in fellowship with him. If you already have a relationship with the Lord, that is good, keep believing and working to deepen your relationship with him, and I am sure that he would come through for you somehow.
If you want to know about God in more detail, you can find further information here https://christcenteredruminations.wordpress.com/2018/10/23/a-few-things-that-i-have-learned-about-god/ And Here https://christcenteredruminations.wordpress.com/2018/08/29/how-to-build-a-relationship-with-god/
May God’s blessings be with you, Amen. ❤ ❤
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Thank you so much for your wonderful thoughts and for you taking the time to read my post.
I believe in God and will always tell Him how grateful I am for what he brings into my life and all lessons he offers me
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God bless you sister. Thank you for this beautiful response.
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